Into the Dark...My greatest Gift!


Tootsie and I circa 1981 Christmas Day...


Spirit Divine Message...Last night as I laid there in complete silence honoring the darkness of the night, as I often do, I began connecting to my Self, my ancestors and RE-memebring. The message Spirit gave me was so profound! When I was little a girl, I absolutely loved to spend the night at my Tootsie and Poppa’s (my paternal grandparents) house! It was just something about being in that house that brought me joy! Among the many reasons that I really enjoyed spending nights over there, was that I always loved when Poppa would go pick Tootsie up from work because sometimes he would take me with him. Other times, he wouldn’t take me because I would ask to stay so that I could surprise Tootsie when she got home from work. When Poppa would leave to go pick Tootsie up, I would make my way into the coat closet in the hallway, and I would sit there in the midst of all that -ish in the dark silence for what seemed like forever...just so I could surprise Tootsie when she got home. The funny thing is that I never really knew if she was truly surprised or if she just pretended to be for my sake. Nevertheless when Tootsie would open the closet door, I was always soooo happy and excited to jump out of the dark silence of the closet and that other -ish into the light! And no matter how many times, I sat in that dark silence of the closet among that -ish waiting to surprise her, each and every time she would always smile and say “Oh Dear” and give me a hug! What’s struck me as Divine last night during my RE-membering is that even though the coat closet was dark and full with -ish, I was never afraid to sit in the dark silence! In fact, I was very appreciative of the closet and excited to sit there in the dark silence because it created space for me to become a surprise, a gift to Tootsie. And no matter how long I had to wait among that -ish in the dark silence, I always sat there quietly listening for the sound of my grandmothers voice. As I sot here, I am Divinely reminded that there is beauty and purpose in the dark silence! I was not afraid then so I do not have to be afraid now to sit with myself among all that -ish. And in those moments when life gets dark, silent and full of -ish, I can always hold onto the fact that a great surprise full of Purpose comes from the dark. I am also reminded that no matter how long I sit in the dark silence the Light will always show up. Finally, I am reminded that whenever I am in those silent dark spac